Flatlander Faith

Apologetics from an Anabaptist perspective

A Clearing in the Woods

I know the Lord will make a way for me,
I know the Lord will make a way for me.
If I trust and never doubt,
He will surely lead me out,
I know the Lord will make a way for me.

Denver and I were into the final stages of preparing for Vacation Bible School, selecting choruses to be sung during the week.  We came to this one.  We read it over, then Denver said, “You know, if the children who come would remember nothing else from the coming week but this song, it would be enough.  They are all going to face situations in their life that seem impossible.  What better thing can we give them but the promise of this song so that they could remember it at such a time and pray the Lord to show them the way?”  I liked his thought and this song became the theme of the VBS week.  Between 90 and 100 children sang it every evening from Monday to Friday and again for their parents during the Sunday evening program.

Twenty-five years later, I was noticing a rapid deterioration in my vision and facing the threat of losing my eyesight.   A specialist diagnosed it as the wet form of macular degeneration.  He told me that the only thing that could help was to inject a drug directly into my eyeball.  He never called it a cure, but held out the hope that it could stop the deterioration, at least for a time.

This was devastating news.  Everything I do, bookkeeping, reading, writing, proofreading, translating, requires the use of my eyes.  How was I going to be able to cope with this?  I prayed and an assurance came to me, softly and clearly: “There will be a way.”  I didn’t take this to be a promise of healing, but a promise that whatever happened, there would always be a way to cope with it.  I remembered the stories my mother used to tell of her father, a blind man who raised a family of 14 on a poor dryland farm.  The children never could understand how he could do some of the things he did.  He refused to give up, and I determined that I wouldn’t either.

That was four and one half years ago.  I have received more than a dozen injections in each eye.  This is not really a pleasant experience, but Dr. Colleaux is very good at what he does and gives the injection quickly and smoothly and the eye heals quickly.  The drug did its job, but for several years it seemed that after a few months the degeneration would begin again.

Now it has been 18 months since the last injection in my left eye and 15 months since the last one in my right eye.  I have lost the central vision in my right eye, but the vision in my left eye is good enough that I can still drive and read and carry on with my work.  During my last visit to Dr. Colleaux, a week ago, he told me that, while he can never say that I am out of the woods with this type of condition, the prognosis from here on is hopeful.

My life has changed, but not as drastically as I had feared.  I may not be “out of the woods” but I will rejoice and thank God that I have at least come to a clearing in the woods.  And whatever may happen in the future, I will continue to trust that “the Lord will make a way for me.”

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